Roadblocks

So since my last post I went to see my specialist regarding my condition. Unfortunately there wasn't much progress made so I have to continue my IV treatments everyday until Jan 24th, when I will then be switched to oral antibiotics and then reassessed.

Surprisingly one of the most frustrating things about this situation is that the most physical activity I'm allowed to do is walk. And that is walking without allowing yourself to become short of  breath; but I guess we are dealing with my lungs. Now I know I should not be complaining because this situation could always be worse BUT I'm finally at a place where I'm ready and eager to change my lifestyle.

I have been really struggling with this over the past week as I have always considered walking; just that-walking. But instead of letting it affect my new journey, I have decided to focus on my mind first. I had purchased a book a few years ago called Women Food and God by Geneen Roth. I saw it on Oprah and knew I could completely relate. While I read it I remember hearing so many familiar things, but at that point in my life I wasn't ready to accept them.

So while going through my things in the basement this afternoon I came across that very book, and as soon as I saw it I knew I needed to read it again. I feel like reading it this time around will have a more profound affect on me, and will really give me the tools I need to move forward.

Here is a little summary of the book if you're interested! http://geneenroth.com/books/